Today my boyfriend came back from acting class and apparently got cooked. He came into the room looking defeated and said, “Maybe I just suck at acting”. Even though he was being dramatic I could hear a hint of him believing this. 

For background, my boyfriend is very new to acting, just started out NOT even three years ago. He quit his highpaying tech job to pursue the gnarly arts. When we were friends he used to tell me to “go smell the grass” because I was always so pessimistic about Hollywood and “making it” and we would fight regularly. A real enemy to lovers troupe. 

 Anyways three-ish years later, watching him after countless auditions some that seem meant be, 10 hours of class a week for years, spending big money on private coaching and materials, loosing money and lots and lots of work,- hearing him say this made my heart hurt because I KNEW how hard the industry and acting life can be, but to see someone you care about experience these feelings, and things is even harder I came to realize. To see such a free spirit get winded by the industry really was testament to how hard it can be as an artist, and I just wanted to protect him and let him skip all the hard steps. This also led me down the rabbit hole of maybe why parents push their kids into the spotlight.  

Anyways, to wrap it up, I have never dated another artist, let alone nurtured one, but I am learning a lot about myself and adding new feelings and thoughts to my toolbox as an artist as I go.